College

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A Journal in which Samantha vents

help me


I'll be honest with you guys.
I'm terrified.

I'm not even sixteen yet and I'm going to college. Granted, it's only three days a week, and I still get to live at home, but those are some pretty high expectations. I've never been very organized, and I tend to procrastinate (right-brained, ADHD, twice-exceptional), which are very bad habits to have when going into a college setting. Not to mention how much of a night-owl I am.
So really I've just been sitting here, pretending I don't start college in two days, trying not to pee myself every time I think about it. I'm nervous, excited, mortified, and relieved all at the same time.
A few of you probably know that I'm homeschooled, and have been since the third grade. This will be the first time since then that I've been in a public school setting. Now, before I get a bunch of comments talking about homeschooling being the reason for my slacker nature, I asked my mother to homeschool me. I was a slacker in public school, but I was still at the top of my class. I just wasn't being given the option to learn as much as I was capable of. I love being homeschooled. It's given me so many more opportunities the learn the things I want to. I excel in English and Literature, but I falter in Math and Science.
At thirteen years old I was diagnosed with a Math learning disability called Dyscalculia.
"...a specific learning disability involving innate difficulty in learning or comprehending arithmetic. It is akin to dyslexia and includes difficulty in understanding numbers, learning how to manipulate numbers, learning maths facts, and a number of other related symptoms." - Wikipedia
Being homeschooled provided me with the one-on-one studying that I so desperately needed to stay on the average level in math. But I wont have that same one-on-one experience at the college.

It's a new environment, with new people and new ideas, and it's scary. I'm scared. But I need to move on. I've completed highschool History, English, and Science and cannot spend the next three years doing only Math.

So if you have any advice to offer, I could really use some right now.

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Hmm I can feel with you concerning math. While I don't have Dyscalculia, I still have some difficulties with more complicated math and avoid it wherever I can. That's why my first semester at university (IT) didn't work out, the math classes were too hard and literally left me devastated. But now I'm studying something I really like and can work with and... well, I'm happy :>
Granted, I wasn't homeschooled. But I think if you have chosen the right major, you can do it! Learning in public is gonna be different, and maybe there are things you don't understand first, but asking a question -or two or three- is better than suffering in silence and trying to comprehend all that on your own. I'm confident you can do this and if you want to talk, I'm there for you, dear! :tighthug: